Thursday, October 05, 2006
I am so sorry for my absence, and I'm also sorry to say it may last a little bit longer.
A couple of weeks ago, while picking up dirty clothes in my 15 yr olds room, I happened upon something she had written. I wasn't 'snooping', it was laying out on the floor for anyone to see, I feel now she did this for me to find. Basically, my daughter had begun 'cutting' herself.....after reading that, I did begin to 'snoop' and found "Good-bye" letters she had written to all of us......yes, suicide letters. It has scared us so bad that we are focusing all our attention with her. She says she knows killing herself is not the answer, but is crying out for help and we are getting it for her. She begins to see a counselor next week, and we have also begun to lean more towards our church and faith in hopes of getting us through this with our daughter. She has gotten caught up in the 'wrong' crowd at school and made some bad choices lately.....but has, at least, realized she needs help but didn't know how to ask for it, hence the note. Alot of this has to do with our 18 yr old, R, running off and getting married and other things due to her, and K is having a hard time dealing with it.
As a parent....and mother, I have to be there for my daughter....and if it means taking time away from my blogging network/friends....well, I will always choose my family, and I know that you guys being my buds and knowing how I feel about my girls, will understand my need to take time off for her. I don't know how long this is going to be before we see some light at the end of this dark tunnel she has got herself into, it really doesn't matter, but I will be back to blogging when that time comes.
Thank you guys for being my buds....I'll miss you.... |
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
***Bec, I so wish you could be here!!!***
That's right....my tiny hickville town has been overrun by Hollywood!!!! You will not believe it, but the crew/actors of Fox's 'Prison Break' are currently here in my little country town filming!!!!! Knock me over with a feather!!!! We went downtown where they were filming and got to watch them in action. Now, for you to understand what a small town I live in, listen to this.
So, me, hubs, my mom and our kiddos are standing around watching the action, I'm ready with my sidekick, 'Brutus', ready to grab a shot of someone famous. My mom and I are huge fans of 'Prison Break'...so we already know who we're looking for, thinking that the other townsfolk are doing the same. WRONG!!!!! Mom and I are watching them do one of the scenes, and they yell, "CUT", and all of a sudden up pops Dominic Purcell...I thought my mother was gonna pull my arm out of my socket!!!! She was like, "Oh SHIT..that's him....get up there, get a picture!" All of a sudden it was like mass panic with the rest of the bystanders.....they soon began moving closer to get a look at Dominic! Mom and I couldn't believe it, basically no one there knew who he was, but heard me and my mom freakin' out and all of a sudden they started acting stupid. It was quite embarrassing.....crew members started yelling at some of the people to move back......I really hate the people in my hick town....Please Dominic...don't hold that against me and my mother.....we so fucking love you!!!!!!!
See Dominic, he's the hot one w/shades on!
They are filming again tomorrow down by the Brazos River Bridge......the famous bridge that R and her friends got lost on the first of June and scared the piss out of us! Anyways.....Mom and I are gonna trek on down there tomorrow and maybe we can get some more shots......what fun...what fun!!!!!
I wish I had a better lens to get closer shots.....note...I've already put in a request for a better lens for Christmas with hubs. |
Friday, September 08, 2006
Alright, I've finally finished my updated 100 things about me.....go here to check it out!!!!
And yeah, sorry 'bout the absence....hubby came home....and we haven't spent much time together...well...without having to go into details........ |
Friday, September 01, 2006
Have I mentioned that I live in redneck central? Yeah....
So, my day was going great, picking up around the house, talked to my mom, hubby, etc....basically same ole' stuff. Left at 3pm to go pick up kids from school, like I always do every day they are in school. But today......it was different.
When I go pick up M from school, all car pick-ups have a sign they show to the teacher that stands in the parking lot, these have our kiddos full name and teacher's name on it. They have a megaphone and yell the childs name to another teacher and then that child either goes to 1, 2, or 3 spot and waits for whomever to pull up and they get in the car and go. Simple....yeah, so I thought.
My turn finally comes after waiting, I hold up my little sign showing in BIG, BLACK letters M's full name and teacher name....she yells it to Idiot #1, she in turns hollars for M to go to #3 slot. She yells again, no child....I've pulled up to #3 slot, still no child, I'm scanning the slew of children sitting in front....I don't even see any sign of M. I roll down the window.....Idiot #1 says, "M Thurber?" Me - "Um, NO, as I show her the sign, it's M....S*****!" Which btw, doesn't even rhyme with Thurber...jeez!
Well, she calls M's name, still no child, now I'm getting just a slight panic. I get asked to pull into a parking spot and they'll check in the school. Ok, maybe she has gone to the restroom or something...no problem.
I walk into the school and get met by her teacher...."I got a message to put her on Bus 26." I begin to feel my knees give a little. Then I'm surrounded by like 10 different teachers/office personnel. Someone says, "We got a call from her grandmother saying she needed to ride Bus 26 today." Ok, now I'm beginning to get into panic mode.
Me - "She did not have permission to ride a bus, I always pick her up!"
Idiot #2 - "Is her grandmother on the pickup list?"
Me- "And what does that matter when you put her on a freakin' BUS!"
Idiot #3 - "Now Mrs. S...calm down"
Me - "Calm down...sure...no problem....AS SOON AS YOU FIND MY DAUGHTER!!!"
M's Teacher - "Do you need me to get you some water?"
*why do people think you need water everytime you are in a panic?*
Me -"I know you're trying to be nice, but I'm not having a baby, I just want someone to FIND my baby!"
Idiot #2 - "Do you know which grandmother would have called?"
Me -"Neither....I don't know"
*I get on my cell and try to call my psycho MIL, I mean, it's possible she went nutso and did call. But I get no answer.**
Idiot #4 - "Where does her grandmother live?"
Me - "If it was my MIL, she lives out on FM2256"
Idiot#5- (talking low, so I can't hear, but I do, because as we all know, mother bears develope keen sense when there cubs are not where they should)"Bus 26 doesn't go out there"
*Ok, now I'm feeling panic....eyes filling with tears.....I'm shaking, I call hubs*
Hubs- "Yeah babe, whatcha need?"
Me - (crying) "They put M on a bus, and they can't find the bus, the driver won't answer and they don't know ...."
Hubs - "WTF! Slow down....who put her on the bus?"
I then explain that someone called the school saying M should ride Bus 26, etc. While talking with him, I overhear Idiots 1 and 2 talking and looking for the message that whoever took about M riding the bus. Get this shit....the message was for a M Lee, not M S!!!!! They got the wrong kid on the bus, and not only is my child missing, but M Lee is riding her regular bus to her home and NO ONE IS GOING TO BE THERE!!!!
Me - "OMG, honey, they put the wrong M on the bus, it was suppose to be an M Lee, no our M"
Hubs - "I WANT TO KNOW WHERE MY KIDS IS !!!!" "Let me call my folks, I'll call you right back"
Idiot 3 to 5 - "Wait, that bus goes to the jr and sr high"
Idiot 5 to 3 - "No, it goes to Lamar and Travis"
Me - *standing up* "Someone better find that damn bus or get ahold of the driver and get my daughter off, or you will have to call the police because I'm two seconds away from losing it in here !!!!!"
Finally some found the bus at one other school and they got her off and I went to get her. But, before I left I made sure all of the idiots standing there heard me.....
"Hear me now, I WILL ALWAYS BE PICKING MY DAUGHTER UP, UNLESS I SEND A WRITTEN NOTE STATING OTHERWISE, OR I......ME.....CALL UP HERE AND TELL YOU MYSELF......AM I CLEAR?" "Do what you have to, make notes, put it in front of her file....maybe on your FOREHEAD, but make a note, this will not happen again, either for me OR any other parent!"
I drive clear across town to the school my M is waiting at, I go into the school office and there she is, sitting there smiling. I just grabbed her and hugged her, still crying a little , but happy I had her in MY arms!!! I thanked everyone there for getting her for me, and me and M left. While walking out to the car, M looked at me...
M - "What 's the matter mommy?"
Me - "Well, the ladies at your school weren't suppose to put you on the bus, another little girl with your name was the one who was to ride it."
M - "I told my teacher I didn't think I was suppose to get on the bus, you told me not to get on the bus, I told her you pick me up."
Me - "Thats right, you did nothing wrong...I just got very scared when I didn't know where you were...that's one of my jobs, to worry when I can't find you."
M - "Well, I'm here now..(she hugs me)...but, that was really fun...the driver hit a bump and we all flew up in the air!" **she pauses** "Mommy.....can I do that again?"
Amazing the idiots that are suppose to be watching are kids while in school!
Right now...I'm nursing on a bottle of wine.....I think I deserve it, don't you?!?! |
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
**You have to have your speakers on to enjoy this one**
I've been working on a new '100' list this past week, and one of the things on it was going to be on our "extended" family of pets. I've had to change the number THREE times!
Three weeks ago we only had two fish in our tank in the living room. We had a Neon Tetra, and a Goldfish, which M had named "Goldie"...original, huh. We headed to PetsMart to purchase a new tank and such for her new 'crabs' and while there she wanted two more of the tetra and two Mickey Mouse fish, and we also got one of those algae eating fish, I call them the 'sucker mouth' fish. So, we bring them home, get them adjusted to the tank, and everything seems to be going fine.
Yeah, right....
Two days ago, I noticed one of the 3 tetras was missing....ok, seriously, where could a tetra go in a 10 gallon tank? Seriously.....I counted...one....two.....hmmmm. Really freaky.....asked the kiddos....no one knew, Ok.....
Later that night, while feeding the fish and turning off the light....Hey....wait a freakin' minute'....counting.....one.......one......ONE!!!! Shit! Now where did the other fucking tetra go!?!?!? Wait a minute....now where the hell is one of the Mickey Mouse fish? Ok, What the hell is going on? Now I'm getting pist......go into K's room, "K, have any of the fish died and you didn't tell me about it?" Giving me one of those teenager "I don't know and could care fucking less" looks, "Huh?" "The fish, in the tank in the living room, the room you hardly go in, some are missing." "I don't do the fish, don't know"....yeah, wasted my time there. So, I'm searching the tank, checking the filter, nada...nothing. Ok, I'm seriously thinking I'm loosing it.
I wake up this morning, take kids to school, come home, turn the light on to the tank. AAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! We now have NO tetras!!!!! What the fuck is going on!?!?! I thought it had to be M's cat, cause I had caught him up on the bookshelf trying his damnest to get one of the fish. So I go looking for him, yeah, like he's gonna tell me it's him. I mean, look at the response I got when asked......
(He loves sleeping in my closet BTW)Nothing like a smart ass Siamese, so, I go back to the tank and then, I see it....the remains of the last tetra, stuck the back side of the filter tube...........
HALF EATEN!!!!!!!! Yes, that's right......GOLDIE is a freakin' cannibal!!!!!!!!!
So, whether M likes it or not.....I changed his name to JAWS!!!!!
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
One of my good friends, I found via blogging, was having kind of a down day. Mackeydoodle was feeling a little taken advantage by someone close and was venting about it.
I wanted to let her know that I'm here for her.....and I love her! Things will get better, you know what you need to do for yourself....although it's hard, you'll make it through this just fine!
The song playing is just for you Mac.....love ya gal!
Your bud......and American Clone
Monday, August 21, 2006
I know our vacation was like a couple of weeks ago, but I finally got my pictures off my memory card and onto disk and can now post.
We had a great time, with the exception of having to share a beachhouse with the 'Psycho'
SIL, her hubby, their two ADHD 
boys, my 'Ex-con' BIL 
and his foul mouthed 
son. Yes that's right I spent 6 days in Hillbilly Hell with hubby's side of the family....thank god for my two kiddos, otherwise I would have drown myself in the Gulf!!! 'Psycho' did nothing but bitch about how she left her camera at home, her toothless husband, (who btw used to have a serious crush on me, and I swear still does 
) walking around grinning like he just swallow a canary....and their two boys who did nothing but go in and out....in and out....in and out.....X a million....of the sliding glass door to the porch. Not to mention that those boys would get up at the crack of dawn and start drinking cokes and dr. peppers and eat candy/cookies and 'Psycho' did nothing about it. My hubby said something to her about them doing that, her response...."It's their vacation, they can do what they want." Can we say....."WTF"!!! Yeah, so M sees her cousins chowing down on sugar and caffine galore and has one hissy-fit 
after another because we won't let her do the same. Then we have 'Ex-con', who does nothing but bitch about having no money, no wheels, and no one to screw! (Yeah, seriously...he bitched cause he didn't "get any" while on vacation) Not to mention he mostly just slept on the couch all fucking day long! His son has such an extending vocabulary, I mean, every sentence had some form of 'fuck', 'shit', 'damn', 'asshole', etc., and he's a year younger than K! Did Ex-con do anything, did he get onto him, NOOOO! Needless to say, we spent the majority of our time on the beach or shopping. Hear me now.....we are planning on going back to the beachhouse, possibly in October and for sure, spring break......but they WILL NOT be with us!!!!I can say the time spent with C and the girls were wonderful! We had so much fun, and I finally got to use my camera, 'Brutus', alot! The following are some of the many pics I took....and I must say, I think I did pretty damn good! I'm still no 'DallasK', but maybe someday I'll be as good.
The 'Psycho's' spawn, that figure in black in the ocean, that would be my K.
That's my M having fun looking for shells on the beach!
Our beachhouse...it wasn't The Hilton, but to have a place to eat and sleep, it was great!
And this.....
Is by far my most favorite one....I asked hubby to get me up at sunrise on our last day to get some pics.....how lucky am I to have gotta some great ones. I've blown this one up and I'm gonna frame it.
Enjoying the trip on the Ferry to Galveston. (ISN'T MY HON' A HOTTIE!?!)
Of course, as with any vacation, there's always that one family member who either gets a real bad case of sunburn, gets hurt, or even sick. Well, one family member came home with CRABS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, couldn't resist
Yep, M saw some Hermit Crabs at one of the shops on Crystal Beach, and begged us for one, and well, we gave in...so now we have crabs...hee.
Despite having to share my vacation with the other 'In-laws', hubby and I were able to have some alone time, walking the beach, just talking and enjoying each other without fighting for once. We were able to talk alot of things out that had been causing problems between us and we are back on track. Of course we all hated having to come back home, but we are looking forward to returning again soon!
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Ok, some of you mentioned that it was kinda hard to read my posts cause of the white against pink....so I've changed the font size, and hopefully this is better...let me know if you still have problems reading it, cause I can make it bigger.
Yes, you read the title correct....it's Back to school for my kiddos!!!! Today is the first day of school....and man did K bitch...bitch...bitch!!!! I know she was anxious to see her friends, some she hadn't seen all summer, but also, she was pist because on her schedule they still show her as a freshman, when she is suppose to be a sophomore. When school got out for summer, she hadn't made enough credits to be classified as a 10th grader. She went to summer school and passed, but when she went to get her schedule on the day for sophomores, they told her she was a freshman. I called and spoke with her counselor who said she hadn't recorded the grades from summer school or the credits but assured me she was going to be classified as a 10th grader. Well, when we went to get her schedule last week, it shows her as a freshman, but she has sophomore classes....that's our ISD for ya! So, this morning she was already in a foul mood, and it didn't help having to go to the office first thing to fix her schedule.
M however was totally excited about her first day, being in the 2nd grade and in a new school. Hell, she was up and dressed before my alarm went off!!!! After we dropped K off, we headed off to her school. I walked her to her class and stayed until after announcements, then blew her a kiss goodbye and told her I'd see her after school. I lingered just outside her classroom door, watching her get her stuff out of her backpack, and then forced myself to turn and leave. I was bawling like a baby before I hit the front doors!!!! Man, I don't care how old they are, or how long you've taken your kids to the first day of school......it's harder when it's your last baby!!! Whew.....I'm tearing up just typing this!!!!! DAMN!!! I took pics of the girls before they headed to school.......forgot to put in the damn CF card!!! I was so fucking pist at myself!!!! So, no pics, I'll have to wait until they wear those clothes again on the same day and get pics again....jeez.
Talked to R last night, she called, said she was 'bored'. She doesn't start school until next week, she's says she kinda excited, at least she'll be getting out of the apartment. She has an appointment with her family doctor this week and then they will refer her to and OB. Yeah, she's starting her 4th month and still hasn't seen an OB. She said her nausea has kinda subsided, and she's not as tired feeling as she has...which is good. Oh, and they got rid of the dog, Z.....he is currently residing with Fabio's folks....which is good, cause she did nothing but bitch about that dog.
Well, gonna try to get some things done around the house while I have the time. |
